Discomfort - Week Twelve - Last Week

This is the last week of my FMP, not much left to do at all. I made sure to plan my work to have some time spare just incase anything went wrong, luckily it didn’t so now I have this last week to work on my sketchbook and my projection + audio piece. It feels weird to be finishing the project, although it was a long period of time it has gone very quickly.

This project helped me realise many things about myself, society and how influential mental health can be. I even started therapy because some of my research made me realise how my feelings aren't particularly the healthiest, i’m okay with admitting that. There is no shame in getting help, although there is large stigmatisation surrounding it.

I am so proud of the work I have made to personify my anxiety, although it looks grotesque, it feels accurate. This is only a small section of my creative journey but I feel it will have great impact on how I create work in the future. My next steps at university seems very daunting, considering I will be going to Central Saint Martins to study Fine Art. Very prestigious university for someone who has so much doubt about the work they create. But this project has helped me let loose, make the work I want to make and not work others want me to make. I still have a long way to go but this stepping stone is one I am happy with.

I almost didn’t apply for this course, I am so glad I did. This time last year I dropped out of one of my alevels, was unmotivated to the point where nothing brought me joy, dropped out of all of my uni options and almost pulled out of doing this course. I’m extremely glad I didn’t do that, so very glad. I find so much joy in the work I create as a release for the emotions that I feel. Not to mention I got into my dream university, which I got rejected from last year. I’ve put so much effort into getting myself back on my feet and putting these emotions into my work has helped that journey, I hope this ’passion’ shows within my project and final pieces which will be exhibited.